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Ugh.
The end of Summer typically means everyone rushing back to their nicer homes in the city after spending months by the seaside, avoiding the chill that arrives with the start of Fall or Autumn moving toward us.
For me though ...
Fall is the time of year for reflection, for retreating, for forgetting.
I'm not a happy creature by any means.
I'm someone who spends much of my days and nights wondering if I'm really going anywhere at all or if I'm better off throwing my hand back into the deck and shuffling again.
I don't calculate as well as others can but you can be certain I do try.
Gods above, I try.
Luck isn't something I worry much over anymore, it isn't the luck that worries or stresses me ... I'd have to say, without a doubt, its more the fear of not being able to leave a solid impression on this world that terrifies me.
Nothing gnaws at the psyche into the early hours of the morning like 'oh gods is it too late for me? Am I just to be another product of a Fascist regime come to light? Am I better off not doing anything and simply drawing back from further competition with those around me?'
Many thoughts like this and others ring out as loud as thunder inside my cranium, robbing me of sleep and my peaceful nightly visions :/
Cali Z is deff gonna be a mover and shaker someday.
Just need to figure out what I'm gonna be moving and whose gonna do the shaking..
Cali Z doesn't fear anyone or anything of the mortal sort: I'm more terrified of cosmic forces that'd strip me of my breath in a heartbeat.
Death is the heavyweight champion with iron spikes in his gloves, I'm the country hayseed with big dreams and even bigger shoes to fill.
What's a bopper to do when facing an entity of the galaxy?
The end of Summer typically means everyone rushing back to their nicer homes in the city after spending months by the seaside, avoiding the chill that arrives with the start of Fall or Autumn moving toward us.
For me though ...
Fall is the time of year for reflection, for retreating, for forgetting.
I'm not a happy creature by any means.
I'm someone who spends much of my days and nights wondering if I'm really going anywhere at all or if I'm better off throwing my hand back into the deck and shuffling again.
I don't calculate as well as others can but you can be certain I do try.
Gods above, I try.
Luck isn't something I worry much over anymore, it isn't the luck that worries or stresses me ... I'd have to say, without a doubt, its more the fear of not being able to leave a solid impression on this world that terrifies me.
Nothing gnaws at the psyche into the early hours of the morning like 'oh gods is it too late for me? Am I just to be another product of a Fascist regime come to light? Am I better off not doing anything and simply drawing back from further competition with those around me?'
Many thoughts like this and others ring out as loud as thunder inside my cranium, robbing me of sleep and my peaceful nightly visions :/
Cali Z is deff gonna be a mover and shaker someday.
Just need to figure out what I'm gonna be moving and whose gonna do the shaking..
Cali Z doesn't fear anyone or anything of the mortal sort: I'm more terrified of cosmic forces that'd strip me of my breath in a heartbeat.
Death is the heavyweight champion with iron spikes in his gloves, I'm the country hayseed with big dreams and even bigger shoes to fill.
What's a bopper to do when facing an entity of the galaxy?
letting go while hanging on
For awhile, I was scared of letting a piece of me die. Everyone has an evolutionary aspect to their soul that requires the occasional bit of rot to occur. For some people it happens overnight - quite literally - whereas others like me ... we can't see the forest through the trees. We're not blind. Not stupid. We're reluctant to let go of who we once were. Because of what is simply called 'the new'. 'The new' is unknown. You don't know what a new city, a new job, a new diet or even something as basic as a new schedule could do for you or to you. You're scared but not because of some boogeyman that lurks around the corner with razor-edge teeth: you're afraid and you can't explain why. The new is unknown. Its the tenacious stomach turning sensation you have as you're awake on Christmas morning with a present in your lap from a loved one. Its the thrumming of your heartbeat as you hear someone mutter sweetly into your ear underneath the mistletoe. Its the wondrous
sakura grove
I'm awake I'm breathing There's grass? New addition, though something I wanted to try and accomplish at some point.. A trail lined by petals? A thicket where magpies and crows squawk happily to one another? Did somebody.. the vultures, the ravens, the carrion feeders, This doesn't feel like the old garden inside my mind. There's small footprints in the dirt that encircle newly dug flower beds, small stones marked with rather 'witchy' symbols sticking out of the ground to ward away harmful energies I didn't do this But I've been away so long... Has someone else tried to redesign my mindspace? I hide behind a tree as I hear someone approach; the figure is wrapped in a cloak of sorts, one with a doubled cape around the shoulders and a clasp in the shape of a pentagram. Gloved hands reach from within the garments and wave around slowly, mumbled incantations and charms ringing in the air. A few more moments pass and a soft 'thud' is heard along with slowly
existential dread and sorrow
Take a nice, long, hard stare at the picture of the forest. That? That right above this sentence? That's what I see when I try and get some decent sleep. An empty, vast forest of skeletons and spiderwebs. A forgotten spot of land where nobody walks, Nobody sings, Nobody tries to say walk through the mist covered trails, There's only the wind Only the breeze It rattles and shudders among the countless dead trees You get used to being alone You find new ways to pass the time I had no idea I was so good at marking things in tally's until I began filling notebooks with them I had no idea I was skilled at preparing tea until I took to sipping it so I'd have something that brought about the beginning of a smile live the life of one who doesn't understand how friends are supposed to work and this is what you might expect sometimes its better to be withdrawn from the rest of the world. you can watch everyone else trying to encroach on your land and stay out of
New Projects coming soon!
Rattle away those collected spiderwebs, shake off that well-developed layer of dust and grime. Stand up, crack your spine and look toward the heavens for inspiration! Now that we have the mindless treacle set aside? Fresh ideas, a whole winter of rainstorms and thundershowers arriving in a couple months or so.. I'm going to make myself become very busy on here again. If I end up even simply putting out a figment or two, something that a few people stick in their 'Favorites' and never put a second glance to, I'll be happy. If anyone is at all interested in the idea, I've gone about creating a Discord - name ShadowWalkingVooDooCat777 - and a Server - name TheOtherSide - so if you're ever up to talk or want to shoot an idea off for a collab or something, you'll know where to look for me. With that said, boppers? Enjoy this afternoon! Find me over Discord if you so wish. Lets brainstorm! (:
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